The Lovely Cimot: First Pet, First Heartbreak

This post is dedicated to my first ever pet, Cimot. May she rest in love, no longer in pain, already in heaven.

It's not even a week since I met her. 

It was Wednesday 20, December when my mom brought her and told me to accompany her to the vet because the kitten she brought with was too small and shivering. I went back to the house to get dressed and grabbed my wallet. I took the kitten with me and sat on the shotgun while my mom driving. I still remembered how small she was and how she tried to seek comfort in my jacket. 

Fortunately, when we arrived to the vet clinic, the vet was free and we were invited in to the vet's room. By the time we put the kitten on the table, the vet said she's too small and she should be still in her mom's care. However, my mom told her that she found this kitten on the streets following the kids without her mom around. My mom took her because she was afraid the kitten will be ran over by car and die. 

The vet then looked at her, observed her. Asked kitten's name (at first, we just gave her random name: Beti from Belang Tiga as the kitten was a calico). She then gave Beti milk substitute and vitamin. Also she said tBeti has so many fleas and she also gave us the anti flea spray and flea comb. She told us that it will be like how we treat a baby. Beti would need milk/food every 2 hours and vitamin once a day. The flea spray need to be sprayed two sprays a day only. We said thanks and goodbye to the vet while also purchasing a pad for Beti.

We then went home and prep a cardboard box for Beti. That night, we gave her milk and put her to sleep. 

The next day, we decided to call her Cimot instead of Beti since Beti sounds so... lame. 

Thursday, 21 December: Cimot was no longer want to drink her milk. She refused to drink it so at first I made her by holding her. She kept meowing and in the end, I didn't have a heart to continue so I just gave her the wet food for baby and mother cat (though she didn't eat the food herself, I have to fed her using spoon). However, her poop was too runny. I was worried. I thought it was because she was eating the food instead of the milk. That's why I went back to force her to drink the milk. We decided if her poop keep runny like this, I will go back to the vet on Friday. Despite all of that, she was a cute and active kitten. 

Friday, 22 December: It was just another day for Cimot in the house. I was playing with her that morning before going to the vet when I found out that her feces contain fresh blood. It's not much but it worried me. Since I already planned to go to the vet today, I then prepped her to go earlier. Since I couldn't find the pet carrier my mom borrowed from her friends in the storage room, I used a used food container to bring her to the vet. Unfortunately, when we get there, the vet wasn't there yet. The practice was start on 10 am while I was already there on 8 am. So we wait. Cimot was asleep inside the box (I kept the box open and put it in the shopping bag), sometimes when she meowed I take her out and put her on the dashboard. 

I registered Cimot to the cashier so when the vet arrives we will get the first order. However, there were a misunderstanding between the staffs and we're going on the 2nd order. When it's our turn, the vet was different from last time. So I told her the story from the very first and she started to examine Cimot. Turned out she might got digestive inflammation and worms. That explained why the poop was runny and the size of her body because she didn't get the nutritions from the food she ate due to the worms. To make her poop solid, the vet was given Cimot a probiotic and she said that when the poop is getting better and solid, then Cimot can be given a anthelmintic to kill the worms. Then I bide a goodbye and said thanks to the vet. But before we went home, I also bought another pad and a small pet carrier to bring her.

(later that day she was playing with herself, cutie)

Saturday, 23 December: Her poop was not getting better, yet. But it was expected since it's just her second day of probiotics. My mom was asking me to go to the mall today. But I thought about Cimot. I called my dad to help looking out for Cimot for a while and also I ordered a cat cage. Even though it took a bit long, the cage was arrived on time. I prepped Cimot and put her on the cage together with her food and pad. I informed my dad too before I go. Fortunately, nothing happened during my absence and Cimot doing just fine. 

(vid taken by my dad)

Sunday, 24 December: I didn't really remember what happened this day. But I guess, nothing much happened. Though, her poop was still not getting better, Cimot was still active. I sometimes put her outside the cage and she would walk around. She also so smart. She knew that when she wants to poop, she needed to dig. So, when she wanted to poop while she was outside the cage, she would 'dig' and I would know that she wants to poop so I could bring her back to the cage before it's too late. She was so cute though at this moment I was thinking if I was able to continue to treat her since I will need my time to go outside, or work that required me leaving her home alone. 

Monday, 25 December: The day I would never forget. This day, in the morning, my mom woke me up by saying "your baby needs you". So I went to Cimot and fed her. It's getting harder to gave her food. So I force her to drink the milk. Then, the thought come to me again. About letting her go for good. I told my mom about it and with heavy heart, we decided to let her go. Initially we planned to bring her somewhere and let her go there. But when we brought her outside, my mom said to put her on the porch. My dad also said the same. So I left here there with her food while my mom and I went to meet her clients. 

At first, it felt okay. Before we went to the appointment, we were going to exercise. Around 7.30, we were going to the place where my mom's clients going to meet her. Then, the news came to me. 

My mom was going to the toilet when I got the news. At 7.59, not event 8 am yet, my dad text me "The kitten died. I think it's the bigger cat doing. Her neck was wide open. Perhaps scratched or bitten by a larger cat.". He also sent me the picture of her laid there, with neck wide open with blood. I unable to downloaded the pic because it was terrifying. I shook and put my phone on the table and cried. I wanted to cried my heart out but I was in a cafe so I know I couldn't do that. I kept crying until my mom back and asked me what happened. I told her and she hugged me. I couldn't stop because I thought it was my fault that she got attacked by other cats. I should not put here out. I supposed to keep her still. I told my mom, I don't want to go home yet. So we decided to stroll around the mall (after the appointment).

We arrived home around 6 pm. I didn't know where my dad buried her body so I just looked around the garden, trying to find the location. My heart felt even heavier when I entered the house and saw Cimot's cage and all his equipment (food, pads, milk). I just went to my room to changed and decided to put away all of her belongings. However, this was the hardest thing ever. I undid the cage, swapped the floor, throw away her left over milks and water, her used pads. I did all of those things while remembering how Cimot used to be here with me. I couldn't help but crying my heart out. I feel guilty. Very guilty. I kept saying sorry to Cimot. Hope she could forgive my negligence, my impatient, my selfish self. If only I could be more patient with her, this should not happen. 

However, it all already happened. I could not turn back time no matter how much I wanted to. I have to accepted Cimot's death and made this as a lesson for me. If I ever have a pet again in the future, I will remember that it's a big responsibility and I need to commit no matter how hard it is. 

Cimot, with this post, I will letting you go for good. I will remember you as a happy moment in my life. At least, we able to meet. I am sorry for everything in the past week. Though it's too short, your presence really means a lot for me. See you. You must be happy now and no longer in pain. I love you. We love you. 

Diet Mayo: Yay or Nay?

Hai... 

Been a while ya. Hehehhee......

Hari ini gue mau bayar hutang. Banyak banget sebenernya cerita yang pengen gue tulis tapi gue lupa apa aja yang mau ditulis (salahkan memori pendek ini ya...).

Belum lama ini (yang artinya udah lama), gue baca posting-an blog temen gue mengenai trend diet mayo. Sebetulnya, gue nggak baru sekarang ini denger tentang diet mayo ini. Setahun lalu, tepatnya bulan Februari, pas banget gue baru balik dari Bandung, gue lagi iseng-iseng liat instagram dan menemukan sebuah akun katering diet mayo di sana. Gambar-gambar yang dipost sangat menggiurkan (walau di caption-nya dijelasin sih itu makanan semua low salt even no salt at all). Saat itu gue nanya nih ke nyokap. I guess it’s a good way to diet. Terus katanya gue disuruh tanya ke kateringnya. So, gue tanya deh.

Setelah gue tanya, ternyata harga buat subcribe programnya (yang selama 2 minggu tanpa henti dengan menu diet yang sudah ditentukan tentu saja) lumayan mahal juga. Kira-kira hampir 2 juta rupiah. Pas gue bilangin ke nyokap, doi ya komennya “mahal juga ya. Itung-itung berarti kamu makan sekali 50-ribuan.”

Dipikir-pikir memang mahal sih ya. So, pada saat itu gue tangguhkan niat gue untuk ikutan. Hingga akhirnya diet ini mulai jadi trend. Jadi trend karena diet ini tidak memerlukan effort yang terlalu besar (kecuali effort lo untuk tahan nggak makan makanan kesukaan lo sih). Menu makanan udah disiapin, lo ga perlu repot lagi nyiapin menu. Dan kalau lo nggak cheating (dengan misalnya makan makanan bergaram/memakan makanan yang nggak dibolehin misalnya) berat badan lo at least akan turn 5-10 kg dalam waktu 14 hari itu. Gimana nggak bikin orang-orang ngiler sama program ini?

You can lose weight without sport (walau lebih baik lagi kalo lo olahraga juga, bisa turun lebih banyak) and literally do nothing (do nothing di sini bukan berarti lo goleran ga jelas ya abis makan, itu sih sama aja bohong).

Back to the topic, bulan lalu lah kali ya temen gue ini ikutan program diet mayo ini. Dan dia menulis pengalamannya di blog. Nggak lama setelah itu, temen kantor gue ngajakin ikut diet ini. Karena kebetulan sekali ada katering diet mayo yang lagi promo (dengan ajak banyak temen harga kateringnya jadi lebih murah). Setelah berhasil ngumpulin 6 orang, kami ikutan. Harganya cuma 600-ribuan aja. Bayangin bedanya jauh ya... hahahahha..

Pada tanggal 11 April, akhirnya kami mulai programnya. Dan.... IT’S BEEN HELL!!! Hahahha.... I am not exagerating ya. Serius. So peraturannya adalah lo harus makan apa yang dikirimkan katering sama lo. No cheating, no drama. Makanannya beneran hambar nggak ada rasa. Yang paling bikin heboh (buat gue sih) ketika dapat menu bayam yang hambar. Gue ini karnivora sejati (walau gue bisa makan sayur, gue termasuk picky). Makan bayam di sayur bening aja malas. Ini lagi bayamnya hambar. Hampir muntah guys makannya. Jujur.

Hari pertama, menunya ini:

Okelah, lumayan (kecuali menu bayamnya ya). Tapi pas makan ayam itu, yang awalnya gue merasa “it’s not that bad” lama-lama lelah ngunyahin ayam ini. Gue sampe bilang ini ayam rasanya kayak penghapus (yeah, yeah gue belom pernah sih nyoba makan penghapus sebenernya. Cuma teksturnya kayak penghapus banget. Dry, tebel lagi, trus hambar).

Hari kedua ini menunya:

Pas banget di hari kedua ini gue harus pergi survey ke Bogor. Survey lokasi untuk training yang diadakan bulan Mei. Menu untuk hari ini, lumayan enak. Pasta dengan daging cincang dan paprika, terus menu malamnya sandwich, melon dan yakult. Ini enak. Cuma godaan di hari kedua ini adalah, karena gue pergi ke Bogornya bareng bos gue (yang nggak ikutan diet mayo of course), dia makan siang di Gumati dan gue hanya bisa ngiler. Hahahhaa sial.

Hari ketiga:

 

 Menunya enak. Hahahhaa.. Kami dikirimin bibimbab untuk lunch dan fish fillet untuk makan malam. Bibimbab-nya sebenernya sih nggak pakai nasi ya. Tapi pakai soun (kayaknya sih). Dan pakai SAMBEL!!! Hahahahah. Walau sambelnya sedikit sih. Cuma lumayan lah ada rasa-rasanya. Fish fillet-nya ini juara banget (nggak bukannya juara karena uenak banget gitu sih). Penyelamat hidup gue yang rindu sama perdagingan dan gue rindu sekali fish & co. Hahahahaha...

Hari keempat:

Gue lupa ya menu malamnya apa. Kayaknya cuma pepaya sama susu kalo nggak salah. Gue sih sejujurnya bahagia sama menu hari keempat ini. Dapet mashed potato dan keju. Yang nggak suka cuma karena ada wortel batangan segede-gede itu. Tapi, menu hari ini temen gue nggak suka banget. Karena menurut dia nggak enak plus temennya pepaya malah susu ultra lowfat yang plain itu. Well, your loss guys. Gue sih kenyang banget sama menu hari ini. XDD

Hari kelima:

 Ini super nyiksa. Menu hari kelima ini suer nggak jelas. Jadi kami disajikan udon,) plus tempe bumbu kuning dengan katsuoboshi (yang suka ada di atas takoyaki itu lho if you’re not familiar with the name dengan rasa yang aduh sumpah nggak lagi-lagi deh makan ini) dan sambel. Serta semangka. Gue makan ini udah nggak pakai mikir yang penting telan dan habis. Di sini gue cheating sih. Minta secuil lele goreng temen gue. Karena rasanya amat sangat tidak berperi kedietan lagi (apalah ini entah). Terus malamnya gue harus ketemu lagi sama si ayam penghapus. Tobaaaaat!! Bisa nggak sih 9 hari sisanya berlalu lebih cepat?

Hari keenam dan ketujuh:

Pada hari ini yang jatuh pada hari Sabtu dan Minggu, kami nggak dikirimin makanan sih. Tapi kami sudah diberi instruksi untuk menu yang harus disiapkan. Menu siangnya adalah telur dan sayur. Malamnya dada ayam. I tried my best to prepare the food. Tapi memang masalah gue adalah nggak bisa merebus telur dengan baik. Telurnya pun berakhir runny dan nggak solid. Ayamnya sih lumayan lah. Nggak semenyiksa ayam penghapus. Hari Minggunya, kami hanya disuruh untuk total detox dengan hanya memakan buah. So gue sengaja beli buah sih karena kebetulan buah di rumah habis.

Minggu pertama, done.

Hari Senin-nya, gue mengharapkan ada menu-menu yang enak lagi dong untuk 5 hari terakhir ini. Iya nggak? Ternyata.... sisa 5 hari berikutnya adalah pengulangan menu. Sebagian besar sih ngulang ya. Senin sama, Selasa cuma diganti pastanya jadi long macaroni dan fetuccini, Rabu sama, Kamis... nah. Kamis ini gue tunggu-tunggu karena gue pikir menunya sama. Ternyata menu makan siangnya jadi ini:

Kan sedih. Enak sih rasanya tapi dibanding dengan Kamis minggu lalu jauuuuuuuh banget. Hiks. Karena gue lelah, akhirnya gue memutuskan Jumat gue akan berhenti. Means, Jumat gue udah nggak akan makan menu yang dikirim. Hahahahha. Cukup tahu ajalah gue rasanya begini.

Jumat gue beneran makan nasi Padang (hahahaha, tapi nasinya setengah kok) dengan lauk yang hanya telur dadar dan perkedel. Dan gue kaget sih ternyata karena selama ini makan dengan porsi kecil, gue jadi cepet banget kenyang. Itu aja kenyang banget sih. Dulu mana mungkin kenyang dengan nasi setengah.

Dan berat badan gue kurang lebih turun hampir 10 kg. YEAY!! Hahahaha! Tapi gue sadar sih. Dengan berat yang turun drastis, responsibility gue untuk mempertahankan itu yang diuji. Oh iya. Hasil gue dari diet ini adalah.... gue bisa muat memakai baju ini:

 FYI, baju ini gue beli dari temen gue udah lama. Tapi nggak pernah gue pake karena bagian lengan dan dada serta pinggul itu sempit. Bagian lengan kayak mau robek gue nggak bisa bergerak bebas. Bagian dada, nggak bisa dikancing. Bagian pinggul, ya.. ngetat gitu lah ketahan. But, ketika hari Kamis, hari terakhir gue diet itu, gue ke kantor pakai baju ini, luar biasa, baju ini muat. Dan masih ada sisa di bagian dadanya. Hihihi... bahagia lho ketika tahu ternyata diet yang gue lakukan ini (dan telah menyiksa gue dua minggu ini) berhasil.

Intinya adalah, selama kita usaha, apapun mungkin. Walau dalam diet ini banyak banget tantangannya (dari yang digodain temen, banyak banget orang kantor yang ultah menyebabkan banyak juga makanan menggoda yang nggak bisa dimakan sama gue, badan lemes karena kurang asupan garam, dst, dll, dsb). Tapi dukungan mama dan adik, serta temen yang support (thanks Falen), membuat gue bisa melewati ini sih.

Kalau ditanya mau ngulang ikut diet ini lagi apa nggak, kayaknya gue akan pikir-pikir ulang sih. Hahahhaha.

In the end, kegiatan diet ini memang harus dikaji lagi tujuannya apa. Karena kalau hanya untuk sekedar kurus, teman-teman gue yang ikutan juga diet ini banyak yang merasa kecewa karena setelah turun beberapa kilo, mereka stuck di berat yang sama. Kemudian jadi putus asa dan berhenti dietnya. Kalo gue, karena dari awal nothing to lose aja, ketika berat badan turun dan mulai merasa jauh lebih ringan, gue sih mulai mengatur makan gue. Porsinya yang gue atur, berusaha untuk nggak makan malam juga dan tetap minum air dengan suhu ruangan.

Hidup sehat itu wajib, guys. Kalo dengan hidup sehat itu menghasilkan badan yang langsing, bolehlah dianggap bonus. Iya nggak? :)

Love,

Nifa