Welcoming 2019

Hello It’s been a while since I wrote here. My last blog post was in 2017. Yea, I kind of busy with things and forgot that I have blog for a year. But worry not, I will try to be more active to write blogs in 2019 (finger cross). Okay. So, first of all, HAPPY NEW YEAR! Yeah I know it’s been 2 weeks since the new year but it’s still the first 2 weeks in 2019 so just let the euphoria lingers. By welcoming 2019, I want to dedicate my blog post to recap what happened in 2018. There were so many things happened in a year. I even thought that 2018 was a long year. But, what happened in 2018 really changed me into a better person. I was pushed to face my worst nightmare, to stepped out from my comfort zone, to experience new things, everything was happened in 2018. So without further ado, let’s get to the recap.

1. Job Promotion: New Job, New Team, New Responsibility
   I started the year with a promotion offer. Not really a position that I have eyed, but still very interesting one. So basically in the end of 2017, GOJEK finally has planned to expand the business to the SEA. To able to do that, all of the documents we have that still in Indonesian, need to be translated to English. So with some friends in content team (my current team that time), we picked some articles, SOP, issues, etc to be translated in English and used for the expansion. It continued until the early 2018, and then my manager asked me if I want to take this as my responsibility. To take care of the expansion plan (for content related). He said that I will still in his team but responsible on the expansion content area. So, I said why not. But it changed. Turned out there were some changes in the organisation and I moved to the Expansion Team and responsible as Content Expert. I was promoted. I was happy but in the same time I was sad… because I need to stepped out from my comfort zone, separated with my friend, my ohana (okay, it’s too much).
2. Xin Chào Việt Nam!
   Because of my promotion to the Expansion Team, I have a lot of opportunities to meet new friends from the country that GO-JEK planned to expand. One of them was Vietnam. So just a week after the promotion, I was preparing the workshop for the Vietnam and Thailand team, the two countries that will be our first countries to expand (Philippines supposed to be included but since there’s some regulation issue so it was pending, until now). In that workshop, I met some people who will work in Go-Viet and Get Thai, and befriended them. It was so much fun. Also I was able to practice my english. And I was become a trainer! Oh my God that was such an unforgettable moment for me. One achievement unlocked. So after the workshop, we were preparing all of the checklist for Vietnam to be launched. On May, I went to Vietnam, Ho Chi Minh City, with the whole team. And that was so good! Vietnam was so… classic, if I must say. It’s like we went back on time to the 60’s but the technology was so advanced. Good thing, the currency was cheaper so I didn’t need to exchange a lot of money. Everything was cheap. Even a pint of Baskin Robbins and Haagen Dazs. But the traffic… hahaha, the traffic was a nightmare. Even worse than Jakarta or Medan. Scary. We tried pho, eat some local food (thanks for this, I knew that I hate coriander for life), took a lot of walk (the pedestrian was so wide and clean and comfy), went to the City Hall and experienced a good night there (by accident!), and many things! Even though some things were not going as planned (like the food was not as good as I thought for my taste), I still really enjoyed Ho Chi Minh. Hẹn gặp lại Việt Nam (see you again, Vietnam!)
3. Fasting as a Minority
   It did not take long until I went to Vietnam again. This time, it happened during fasting month, Ramadhan. I kinda worried since it’s going to be my first time to fast in other country. Let alone, as a minority. It’s gonna be harder because we will still get lunch together, and working as usual, and seeing them eat… and I will be the only one fasting. That’s what I thought. When it’s time, I got my period. Ehehehe, so I didn’t get to experienced my first day there fasting. Thank God. On this second time, we stayed at a rent apartment. And because it’s fasting month, we kind of brought some food to prep like chicken nuggets, beef jerky, beef floss, noodles, even Teh Kotak. Hahaha, I know it was silly. But, after all, our tongues are really Indonesian tongues. On the last days there, I finally experienced fasting in the country. Ho Chi Minh might be as hot as Jakarta but it was more humid there. So I felt thirsty easier than usual. And since most of the team were not fasting, I found it hard to see them eat. I let them know that this was something I need to do as a Muslim. And they understood. But in the end, one day before I went back home, I decided to not fast and go around the city. Because I know it’s going to be very tiring and hot and hard day to fast. Hehehe, turned out my faith was not enough to keep me from doing things I should not.
4. The (so) Unpredictable World Cup
   Yeah, 2018 means FIFA World Cup. I really could not wait for this moment. The moment I could support my favorite football team, Der Panzer, Germany. To people who did not know me, they might think that I was just like any other people who like soccer at the time like this, and just like the player based on their look. But no, people. I have watched soccer since I was in senior high. I used to like MU but now I root for Chelsea (London Pride!). And I started my World Cup journey on 2002. When it held at Korea-Japan. Germany was my first love and the rest is history. Anyway, just like any other year, I rooted for Germany. They won the Cup back at 2014, and I hoped they will win this too. However, some player has retired. Such name as Lahm, Klose, Schweinsteiger, and many new young players that I did not know before joined the team. I knew they must be good. So I have no worries. But luck was not on the Germany’s side. They have to withdraw from the cup in a group phase. Dang! I was so sad and disappointed. They played bad and I kinda foresee the result. But overall, this year’s World Cup really unpredictable. The big team like Netherlands and Italy did not qualified to even played in group phase. Germany, Argentina, Portugal and many big players lost to some underdogs. Russia as a host went until QF. Belgium could pass the QF and went to the SF. England got their glory again and went until SF. And the finalist… it was Croatia vs France. Although Croatia needed to admit that France was still that good, it was an achievement for the team to be the finalist and runner up this year.
5. Asian Games and Asian Para Games 2018: in Indonesia!
   The most awaited sport events in Asia was finally happened. Even though I need to be satisfied to just watching the event at home. The star of the event of course, Badminton. Through this event, finally, badminton got its glory again. Everyone was rooting for our badminton team. There were Nobar everywhere, even at the office. Hahahaha. Yeah, my coworkers even streamed in the big screen. It was really big. But in the contrary, the same excitements did not happened for the para games event. The streaming site were not as much as for the Asian Games one. But deep down, I was still rooting for our athletes who compete in the event. They were the true hero!
6. Go-Viet is LAUNCHED!
   So after all this time, the hard work, the blood, sweat and tears, it’s LAUNCHED! Although my team was not invited to the event (yeah only the big bosses came, e.g. Nadiem), we’re so happy that it’s finally happened! The grand launch was held in Hanoi, since Go-Viet also launched in Hanoi at that time (they had already go live in Ho Chi Minh City few months before). The President of Indonesia came to see the event too. You might never know how it feels. All the stressed, the pressures, finally over. HAHAHA IT’S OFFICIAL. I’m happy. So much.
7. SINGAPORE!
   YES! WE’RE GOING TO EXPAND TO SINGAPORE! I thought that I’m going to visit Thailand first but no. So after we launched at Vietnam, I thought Thailand will be launched not long after. But while Thailand was preparing, Singapore was coming. Actually, GO-JEK had an office in Singapore, but only for Data Science team. And by this, the plan for Singapore was different from what we have for Vietnam and Thailand. In Singapore, instead of built a new brand, we’re just going to expand GO-JEK brand and use it all together. So while we’re preparing for that, the whole Service Excellence Team from Singapore came to Indonesia. They’re having a session here. Like a workshop we were held for Thailand and Vietnam team. It’s so much fun. Even though it’s also tiring. Singapore team was colder than the Vietnam and Thailand team but they were good people, I know. Couldn’t wait to go to Singapore.
8. Solo Traveling
   God really heard my prayer. So not long after, someone from the team asked me to go to Singapore to help the content team there. They were asking me to go alone. I was screaming inside. I am going to solo traveling! So I prepared my passport again, my trunk again. I was overwhelmed. What if my baggage is overload, what if I lost, and so many what ifs. Because it’s gonna be my first time go to other country all by myself. And I never went to Singapore before. It’s so daunting. I have planned everything. So I asked the ticketing team to set my flight on Sunday morning because I planned to go around the city. But me being the stupid myself, was ruined the plan by watching Crazy Rich Asian midnight show and ended up not sleeping before the flight. It made me sleep all the way to the Singapore and my body was aching the whole afternoon. So of course the plan to go around the city was failed. While I was in Singapore, I use the public transport, I was going local. Walking on the pedestrian, using the ez-link card, walking to the subway station, riding the train. I did not have many times to go around the city, but I make sure to utilize all the time I have there to enjoy the city. It’s too short. I will be back. Soon. Wait for me, Singapore.
9. HAPPY 8TH ANNIVERSARY, GOJEK: My 3rd GOJEK Anniversary
   This year, GO-JEK turned 8th years old. Pretty much old as a startup company, don’t you think? And then I realised. It’s my 3rd GO-JEK anniversary. I was joined the family when GO-JEK celebrated its 6th anniversary. And now, it’s already 8th. Hope that GO-JEK could become a great company, always be the fast and fearless startups, dynamic and stay Indonesia. Success to conquer the SEA area and be head to head rival for Grab. Me love you, my second family.
10. Attended 3 Concerts: BTOB, Golden Child, and DAY6!!!
    This was the best thing ever happened in the year! Starting from BTOB who finally came to Indonesia (even though Eunkwang couldn’t join them because he needs to go to the military, sad). The concert was superb. But I would not say that as a full concert. It was like mini concert + fanmeeting kind of event. They talked a lot, play a lot. Really entertaining. They were really good looking, funny, sweet and endearing. I would love to see them again in the future. Especially because I need to see Eunkwang in the real life! And then my friend told me that there will be a charity event and my favorite rookie idol is going to come as a guest. Golden Child is finally coming, that’s what I thought. Of course I went to that event! But since it’s going to be like a festival kind of event, with more than 1 artist, I was thinking hard to purchase the ticket. On the d-day, I was going to purchase it when my friend gave me the ticket freely! Happy. So yeah that night, I was having a very good night. The other artists also performed really good, especially 1 band named Kite Band. They were REALLY good. Of course Golden Child was become the last performer and I was blown away! They were that good. And Jangjun was talking in Indonesian (but his grammar was so bad but at least we understood). They were really good looking in real life I couldn’t even hold my scream back then. The last one, to close the year was, DAY6! You know, it was really impulsive decision. Since I just knew them from April, and they announced that they’re going to have world tour and will going to Jakarta on December, I impulsively bought the ticket on the first day of the sales. Though the short time, I really could say that I LOVE THEM SO MUCH! Their songs were really good. No bad song ever produced. To stan them was a blessing. My friend who introduced them to me, have attended their event for two times. The one time was including a high touch session. And the price for that at that time only half the price. I think I will talk about these three concert on different post. Or else, this is going to be a long post.

So, I think, that’s all. All the things I have experienced last year really made me think that I’ve done a lot. I achieved so many things. I made many new friends. I traveled to many places. I took new responsibility. So, I wonder, what will 2019 brings for me? I hope many good and even better things for me. Ciao. - Nifa

Musibah (Pelajaran Berharga di Awal Ramadhan)

Haaaaai semua~

Sebenernya gue mau share yang lain tadinya. Seriously udah gue list topik-topik blog yang mau gue tulis. But i think, ini penting untuk dishare sih. Kayaknya. Hahahaha...

Jadi, gue ini memang anaknya ceroboh dan pelupa, parah. Udah gitu anaknya rempongan. Namun, entah kenapa hal ini nggak gue seriusin. Biasa aja. Yaaa, pelupa yaaa ceroboh tapi biasa ajalah. Sampai hari itu datang (tsailah).

Hari Kamis kemarin sebenernya berjalan biasa aja. Smoothly, biasa aja, rame, dan dipenuhi dengan rasa kantuk. Dan hari itu hari pertama gue period. So yeah.... ga puasa. Ahahaha.

Tapi semua berubah jadi sendu ketika gue menyadari dompet yang isinya hape, ktp, 3 kartu atm dan stnk papa hilang.

Semuanya bermula pas gue mau pulang dari kantor. Seperti biasa, gue memang males bawa mobil selama bulan puasa karena macetnya ampun-ampunan. Jadi gue jam 4 kurang itu udah nyari grabbike buat pulang. Untungnya gue langsung dapet jam 4.13 sore. So gue dengan girang langsung turun ke lobby. Nah, biasanya gue ini nggak nenteng apapun kecuali iphone gue. Tapi kali ini gue nenteng tu dompet kecil yang biasa gue bawa ke mana-mana. Gue cantelin sih di pergelangan tangan. Sampai situ masih aman nih dompet.

Nah gue lupa entah di mana gue lepas itu cantelannya dari tangan gue. Dan gue taro di jok motor abang grab. Gue sambil mainin iphone kan. Ga aware sama keberadaan dompet itu. Sampai di rumah jam 5 sore kira-kira, gue turun aja dari motor, balikin helm dan langsung masuk rumah. Nah di sini, gue udah nggak inget apa gue bawa itu dompet apa nggak.

Gue bener-bener nggak sadar dan nggak tahu kalo dompet gue nggak ada sampai hari Jumat pagi pas gue mau jalan ke kantor. Gue inget karena kemarinnya gue bawa-bawa itu dompet, gue mau masukkin ke tas. Ternyata gue cari nggak ada dong di mana-mana. Di kamar nggak ada, di bawah nggak ada. Fixed ilang ini dompet.

Awalnya gue masih usaha nelpon abang grab yang kemarin gue tumpangin. Tapi dia bilang dia nggak tau karena dia abis nerima helm balik, ya langsung jalan. So asumsinya adalah tuh dompet jatoh pas dia jalan. Udahlah itu udah nggak mungkin ketemu, pikir gue.

Langsung gue telponin semua bank yang kartu atmnya ada di sana. Gue blokir semua. Terus, gue tungguin mbak gue dateng buat nemenin ke Polsek Duren Sawit buat bikin laporan kehilangan. Pas lagi tidur-tiduran sambil nginget-nginget lagi apa yang ada di dompet itu, gue seketika inget bahwa STNK mobil papa ada di situ juga. Langsung lemes sih gue. Nangis nggak karuan.

Langsung gue telpon papa, bilang stnk-nya ada di dompet gue yang ilang. One thing yang bikin gue merasa sangat bersalah adalah, karena gue jadi ikut merepotkan orang lain atas kelalaian gue. Ktp, atm dan hape gue ilang itu emang kelalaian gue, tanggung jawab gue. Tapi stnk ilang itu pure kelalaian plus kebodohan. Karena yang repot jadi bukan cuma gue. Hiks.

Akhirnya Jumat kemarin gue nggak ngantor demi mengurus semuanya. Walau pada akhirnya yang berhasil keurus cuma bikin kartu atm baru (BNI karena duit gue di situ semua). Karena Pak RT-nya kemarin nggak ada di rumah. Sedih. Hari ini, Sabtu, gue rencananya mau urus surat pengantar buat bikin ktp baru sih. Semoga bisa beres semua. Terus Senin bisa diurus ke Kelurahan.

Ini semua gue yakin ada hikmahnya sih. Buat diri gue supaya nggak ceroboh dan teledor lagi. Buat gue yang jangan pernah lupa buat menyisihkan uang buat orang lain yang kurang beruntung. Mungkin ini adalah pelajaran buat gue supaya lebih aware sama sekeliling, atau bisa juga teguran Allah karena gue kurang berbagi sama orang lain. Bisa jadi dua-duanya sih. Yang bisa gue lakukan sekarang emang cuma pasrah dan masih berusaha mengikhlaskan semua yang hilang itu sih. Semoga semua ini bener-bener bisa memberi gue pelajaran yang berharga untuk bisa membuat gue berubah ke depannya.

So, yeah. Buat temen-temen yang teledor, pelupa dan rempina, ini bisa dijadikan bahan pelajaran sih. Jaga barang-barang kalian di deket kalian. Always check and re-check. Dan kalo emang megang-megang barang di tangan itu rempong, nggak usah dikeluarin dari tas. Mendingan rempong pas belakangan daripada kehilangan gini.

See ya with another updates yaaa....

Love,

Nifa

Just....

23 Februari 2016

I feel so fed up and tired of this job. I mean… I don’t really have works. No, bukannya gue nggak punya kerja tapi gue nggak punya kerjaan. 

Not really. 

Mostly I just watching something on my PC, twittering, anything but work. I feel like I’m not gonna be someone here. Not gonna get any position.

And then there’s this girl. I like her. Really. She was well just like my little sister I didn't even have. But, maybe she’s more creative, more outspoken, more….. everything. A risk taker. Oh and she’s younger than me. But well, she shadowed me. I don’t really want to say this but really…. I’m somehow feeling so… defeated. 

And now, today, I just heard that she may be going to be a socmed specialist(?) or socmed trainer. Well maybe because she can. I don’t blame her really but… I want that kind of opportunity too. But then what is my wall? Maybe my confidence, maybe my insecurity, maybe my introvert side, I don’t know.. Or maybe it's just me, who build a damn brick wall in front of me that close all the opportunity I might have.

I hate ‘this’ me. I hate me who hates others because they do better than me. I hate me who can’t overpass people. I hate ‘this’ me. TT TT 

Jokes, Apa Iya?

Jokes. Candaan.

Kata yang sering dianggap enteng oleh banyak orang. Kata yang sering dijadikan tameng untuk menyakiti hati orang lain. 

"Ih lo baper banget sih. Gw kan cuma bercanda!"

"Yaelah gitu doang marah. Canda kali canda!"

Perlu diperhatikan ya teman-teman. Dalam bercanda, kalian juga harus punya etika. Nggak boleh menyakiti hati orang lain. Dalam hal ini berarti nggak boleh jadiin orang lain sebagai bahan bercandaan lo. Emang lo suka kalo lo ada di posisi orang itu?

Dalam bercanda, ketika orang yang lo 'ketawain' nggak ikutan ketawa, means dia nggak merasa bahwa bercandaan lo lucu. Mungkin dia, deep down, merasa candaan lo itu nyakitin. Tapi demi kenyamanan semua orang (selain dia tentunya) dia diam dan ikut tertawa. Next time? Kalian akan mengulangi hal yang sama. Toh org yang bersangkutan biasa aja. Damn you people. Emang lo tau dia biasa aja? Dari mana? Mind reader lo ya?

Sekadar cerita. Ada seorang cewek cantik, namun gemuk. Orang pasti akan bilang "cantik ya, sayang gemuk".

Hell-ooo! Emang lo siapa? Emang kenapa kalo dia gemuk? You don't know what she's been through. Mungkin dia pernah diet setengah mati tapi nggak kurus-kurus juga. Mungkin dia sering minum obat pelangsing, tapi nggak ada efeknya. Mungkin dia juga merasa nggak senang dengan badannya. Lo. Nggak. Akan. Pernah. Tahu!

Bahwa dia mungkin terkadang merasa mau mati aja. Bahwa tubuh gemuknya adalah turunan dari orangtuanya. Bahwa dia gemuk karena dulu dia pernah anorexic or bulimic. Kalian nggak tahu. Makanya jangan nge-judge. 

Ada satu kejadian yang gue yakin banyak dari teman-teman yang berbadan gemuk seringkali alami. Kalian seringkali dibercandai dengan cara: tubuh kalian seakan menabrak orang lain dan orang lain pura-pura mental. Hell lame!

Mereka tertawa. Merasa biasa saja. Yang diketawai juga nggak tahu harus gimana akhirnya hanya ikut tertawa dan pura-pura marah (walau mungkin dia bisa aja marah beneran sih). Tapi, mereka tak peduli. Someday mereka akan melakukan ini lagi.

Mereka merasa ini lucu. Menertawai seseorang karena bentuk tubuhnya adalah hal yang lucu. Kan cuma bercanda. Hah! Iya juga ya. Bodoh banget gw yg begini aja jadi masalah. (read my sarcasm ya... (:)

Ha ha.

Tapi buat gue itu nggak lucu lho. Ya mungkin gue dulu pernah begini juga ke orang lain, makanya ini juga jadi bahan introspeksi diri gue. 

Kalau kalian, iya kalian yang ngetawain itu, ada di posisi dia, apakah kalian akan ikut ketawa juga? I dont think so. Kalau kalian jawab iya dan blg "ya kan itu bercanda, santai aja sih" then kalian nggak benar-benar berusaha ada di posisi dia. Dia, dan gue juga mungkin teman-teman yang gemuk lainnya, nggak merasa santai. Dan mungkin, sadar atau nggak, kalian ngomong begitu sebagai pembelaan dan pembenaran tindakan kalian yang suka menertawakan itu. Akui aja lah.

Badan gemuk ini, bukan kami yang mau kok. Ya kami memang suka makan (alasan gue nggak jadi anorexic adalah karena gue suka makan, so what with that) dan kami nggak suka menyiakan makanan (alasan gue nggak jadi bulimic selain karena gue nggak suka muntah). 

Bagaimana pun bentuk badan orang, baik gemuk, kurus, biasa aja atau terserahlah bagaimana, bukan alasan bagi orang lain yang merasa dirinya "SEMPURNA" untuk bisa meledek atau menjadikan itu sebagai jokes material. Kalian sangat salah kalau merasa melakukan itu adalah hal biasa dan meminta orang-orang yang kalian tertawakan itu maklum dan iya aja jadi bahan bercandaan. 

Ingat, guys. Kalian bukan bercanda kalau orang yang kalian jadikan bercandaan itu tidak ikut tertawa bersama kalian (tertawa secara tulus ya bukan karena terpaksa). Cobalah jadi orang yang peka dan bisa merasakan keadaan sekitar. Jangan maunya dimaklumi terus. 

Nggak semua yang kalian anggap lucu itu adalah hal yang benar-benar lucu. Mungkin justru hal itu bisa menyakiti hati orang lain. 

Nggak perlu punya otak cerdas kan untuk bisa mengerti hal ini?

Think! Before you do anything. 

Ciao.

*ini juga menjadi bahan introspeksi diri buat gue. Mungkin dulu gue juga pernah melakukan hal ini dan nggak sadar kemudian sekarang gue mengalaminya. 

Dream > Myself : What I Want to Achieve

Ahiyaaa~ (maklumi anaknya yang suka bikin salam semau-maunya)

I know I just posted before. But please let me let out what’s in my mind. I really need it right now.

Oke. Jadi gini. Seharian ini, gue nggak habisnya mandangin hape gue. Berharap ada sms mengenai kelanjutan wawancara gue. But, I still have not get any message(s) yet. Still optimist eventhough rasanya menipis. Hmm…

Tiba-tiba, kembali terpikir masalah yang beberapa bulan lalu gue pikirin. Perihal lanjut master langsung setelah lulus. Jadi, sebenarnya, pas mau sidang gue itu malah sibuk buka-buka situs LPDP dan download list universitas yang ada di LPDP. I did my own research. Buka link universitasnya, cek jurusannya, gimana cara masuknya, ada thesis atau nggak, berapa lama, apa aja yang dibutuhkan dan lain-lain. I really do want to continue my study.

Hal ini bukan perkara mudah. Pertama, karena gue memutuskan untuk master di luar negeri. Which means, I need to fight to get a scholarship. Which leads to, what major I want to take. Aaand, does the major I want to take need me to write a thesis or not. Kenapa luar negeri, mungkin ada sebagian dari teman-teman yang bertanya tentang ini. Well, I just want to go abroad and take as many lessons as I can.

Bukan berarti universitas di Indonesia kurang baik atau gimana gitu ya kualitasnya. Tapi I just want to explore some countries while I learn something. Jadi bukan semata jalan-jalan gitu (not that I think traveling to other country is bad though). Nah, karena gue ingin di luar negeri, gue harus berjuang untuk dapat beasiswa. Kenapa? Karena pasti nggak murah. Dan tentu ortu juga nggak akan segitu mudahnya mengeluarkan uang untuk biayain master gue.

Dari situ, muncul pertanyaan, jurusan apa sebenarnya yang gue mau ambil. Jujur sampai saat ini, jurusan masih jadi satu hal yang gue bingung. Gue ini sarjana pendidikan, tapi, gue nggak mau ambil master di bidang itu. Bukannya nggak suka, tapi ada hal-hal yang ingin gue pelajari selain disiplin ilmu yang gue ambil sebelumnya. Jurusan-jurusan yang menarik bagi gue setelah lihat-lihat beberapa web universitas adalah TESOL, International Relations, Journalism atau Broadcasting, Literature dan beberapa jurusan social studies dan humaniora (catatan gue sebenarnya hilang pasca sidang. Kayaknya keselip dan sampai sekarang belum ketemu TT TT).

Jurusan-jurusan itu gue temukan di beberapa universitas yang ada di Australia, UK, US, Korea, Jepang dan Singapura. Khusus untuk Jepang dan Korea, gue sebenarnya sih nyari juga yang bahasa pengantarnya Inggris. Selain karena masih worried tentang thesis, gue masih suka roaming jadi precaution aja. Jangan sampe udah jauh-jauh kuliah malah nggak nangkap ilmunya. Kan sayang.

Then it leads to thesis. Ya, gue masih trauma sama yang namanya thesis gara-gara skripsi (membenarkan apa yang Nana tulis di blognya mengenai ini). Gue, jujur aja, nyusun skripsi itu empat semester. Took me a while, yeah, dan itu beneran menghabiskan waktu gue. Gue bukan tipe orang yang suka penelitian. I love reading, I do. Tapi membaca karena suka dan membaca karena harus untuk meneliti itu beda (at least buat gue sampai saat ini). I love making paper. Kalau topik papernya gue paham dan kuasai. Sementara beberapa penelitian, nggak selalu mengenai hal yang kita inginkan, iya nggak? Terkadang ada campur tangan dosen pembimbing dan beberapa teman yang berkesempatan kuliah di sana, memberi testimoni yang demikian.

So, I really did read thoroughly about the non-thesis major or program. Dan ada! Di beberapa universitas di Aussie dan UK juga Korea ada program non-thesis. Kalau di Aussie dan UK namanya Course Program. Only take a year to complete (kalau nggak salah ingat). Kalau di Korea namanya apa ya, kalau nggak salah ada yang bisa milih mau ambil jalur thesis atau non-thesis. Kalau ini tetap dua tahun. Jadi kita hanya perlu menyelesaikan kredit yang dibutuhkan, menyelesaikan beberapa jurnal dan mungkin ada internship beberapa bulan (jadi nanti 1 tahun lebih sedikit) and you get your master. Sayangnya, di Jepang nggak ada. Di US juga kayaknya ada sih, tapi lupa.

Ya, jadi garis besarnya begitu. Untuk merealisasikan mimpi gue ini, masih ada beberapa hal yang harus gue penuhi. Salah satunya TOEFL. Ya, gue tentu saja harus memiliki sertifikat TOEFL atau IELTS. Ini yang masih harus gue penuhi sekarang. Gue akan cicil satu persatu sebelum ada pemberitahuan lagi. Supaya nanti saat ada pengumuman, gue bisa langsung apply. So I need to research again (dan mencatat baik-baik kali ini nggak boleh hilang lagi).

Gue mungkin bukan orang yang pandai, bukan orang yang suka belajar terus menerus (belajar di sini maksudnya yang mencatat, menghapal, etc.), tapi gue orang yang banyak mau. Gue selalu mau tahu hal yang gue nggak tahu. Gue nggak suka ujian, tapi, gue suka mempelajari hal baru. Lucu ya, nggak suka belajar padahal. I love to learn something about things I like. Jadi, ya, begitu. Keinginan gue ambil S2 atau master mungkin bukan untuk gelar semata, tapi ingin menghilangkan rasa haus gue untuk tahu tentang dunia. Dan gue nggak peduli sih apakah nantinya gelar gue akan berguna untuk masa depan gue atau pekerjaan gue di masa depan walau gue selalu berharap apa yang gue kerjakan nanti akan terbantu dengan ilmu gue. So, yeah. Wish me the best of luck. Gue sekarang sedang merajut perlahan mimpi gue. Berharap, suatu saat, gue bisa benar-benar mewujudkannya.

I have a dream. And that dream is bigger than me. But I really grateful I have it. Someone really needs a big dream in their life so that they can achieve more and more before they get what they’re dream of (pardon my english).

Love,

-Nifa

Pasca Wisuda Lalu…….

Hai…

Just like the post before, I finally got my degree. Secara resmi udah sarjana. Udah diwisuda. Lalu? Iya ya, lalu apa? Idealnya sekolah > kuliah > kerja. Tapi apa memang segampang itu? Nyatanya, yang gue alamin sih nggak segampang itu.

Gue jujur aja kuliah lebih dari batas waktu ideal yang gue mau. Empat tahun itu maksimal (bayangan ideal di kepala gue). Tapi ternyata, gue lebih dari itu. Memang rencana itu bisa dibuat, tapi kenyataan kadang nggak seindah rencana. Long story short, lulus pada akhirnya setelah lima tahun. Lalu setelah itu kerja kan? Seharusnya. Nah, emang sekarang lagi ngapain?

Jadi sarjana ternyata nggak seindah yang dibayangin ya. Nyari kerja juga nggak segampang yang dipikirin. Jujur, gue ini memang hidup mudah. Well, bukannya gue anak orang kaya, nggak. Tapi paling nggak, saat gue kuliah, gue nggak perlu nyari duit sendiri, kerja, untuk bayaran. Alhamdulillah, orang tua masih bisa membiayai. Lalu? Ya kehidupan kuliah gue ya gitu-gitu aja. Karena nggak merasa butuh uang lebih (walau kadang kepikiran juga) gue nggak berusaha mencari kerja seperti teman-teman gue yang lain. Dari yang kerja ngajar les privat bahasa Jepang, les di bimbel ngajar MIPA, jadi penerjemah lepas atau apapun deh. Gue nggak pernah kepikiran untuk ikutan.

Awalnya alasannya karena rata-rata jobnya jauh dari rumah. Kedua alasannya karena ngajar MIPA (anak IPS ini nggak mungkin ngajar fisika kan?). Ketiga, karena nggak mau ngajar (atau lebih tepatnya dulu beralasan nggak bisa). Idealis atau nggak, gue juga nggak tau. Mungkin iya, gue idealis karena gue pada dasarnya memang nggak ingin jadi guru. Pada akhirnya, beberapa kali gue ikut juga jadi volunteer. Salah satunya waktu Jak-Japan Matsuri. Lumayan juga. Gue pikir saat itu nggak akan dapet honor, namanya juga volunteer. Tapi ternyata dapet, alhamdulillah. Sukses dapet pengalaman, jadi penerjemah ala-ala dan dapet uang jajan, plus seneng-seneng di festival Jepang.

Terus sekarang gimana? Ya alhamdulillah sih masih nganggur. Hehehehe… loh iya, alhamdulillah. Masih dikasih kesempatan nganggur. Banyak loh orang yang kepengen nganggur. Alias kebanyakan kerja jadi pengen libur (iya alasan aja Nifa mah alasan). Tapi serius, sekarang emang masih rajin nyari kerja. Bilang gue masih idealis tapi emang pengennya kerja di bidang yang gue mau. Ortu sebenernya udah gerah kayaknya liat gue kayak nggak ada kerjaannya di rumah. Tapi, percayalah, gue nggak segitu nganggurnya. I’m working for my dream. Hmm, nyicil nulis lebih tepatnya. Tulisan yang seharusnya udah selesai entah bertahun lalu, dan terus menerus gue ulang tapi nggak kunjung selesai.

Anyway, berkali gue curhat sama temen juga. Dan emang, mungkin jalan orang beda-beda. Ada yang mudah dapet kerja, ada yang berpikiran untuk kerja apa aja yang penting dapet kerja dulu, ada yang memang suka dengan kerjaan yang didapat langsung, ada juga yang lama kayak gue. Intinya adalah gimana caranya kita menyikapi ini semua kan? Beban pertanyaan yang berlanjut (dari “kapan lulus?” ke “udah kerja di mana?”), tuntutan dan ekspektasi orang tua yang mungkin tinggi juga daaaaan….. lingkungan sekitar (kayak mungkin teman-teman seangkatan atau teman-teman yang wisuda bareng) yang udah kerja dan udah bisa ‘bahagiain ortu’. At some point, gue iri, tapi sekarang, gue rasa nggak ada yang harus diiriin. Walau nyokap kadang masih suka bikin keki, tapi gue rasa, itulah caranya nyokap nunjukkin kalo dia sayang. Oooh, I love you too mom.

Udah ah. Gue sampe bingung sumpah itu nulis apa aja. Let’s meet at the end of the road, ya…

Ciao,

-Nifa

P.S: gue tadi dapet sms dari Dompet Dhuafa yang katanya gue lolos seleksi dokumen dan dapet panggilan psikotes dari Mizan. Let’s hope for the best ya. Wish me good luck.